archived throughout the years XD.

unknown dates:

i was watching myself getting violently gang raped. it was like in the middle of a street during the daytime. i tried imagining it was really rough sex with tatsumi kazehaya [lol] to try get some enjoyment out of it and to make it less scary.

i was getting raped in my new bedroom for the first time! by a teacher or some leader figure. he put it in my butt and i thought that it hurt less than having it put in the front. my prostate had fallen out [i was a hermophrodite maybe?] my legs and thighs felt sticky and wet. i told my friend what just happened over discord.

i watched a man rape a woman who was in the middle of giving birth. when he left and she finally gave birth, her baby was dead. im not sure why i didnt stop him. i think he might have had a gun.

my dad came to my house, a new one i assume. he was dressed like an adult baby with food on his face and shirt. he was being horrible and refusing to leave getting aggressive and stuff. i had to stab him! it was the first time he ever died from my stabbing though lol. he died and i had to wide his body in the wall next to the water pipes. i thought that i couldnt live knowing i'd killed somebody but that id have to try live happily.

i was in a colorful kitchen with a made up friend. this kitchen has appeared a few other times but not as colourfully painted. it was nighttime and dark. it was super haunted in there. we were holding anime figurines that started blinking and making noises etc. its much better had you been there

i died in a tiny pipe or drain it was horrible. like behind a toilet

2019:

[24/8/19] I was in a strange scary world. i was walking down a familiar-ish road to get home in the nighttime. There were creatures popping out everywhere and i remember seeing a sign that said something about reality with an eye on top of it. Kind of like a psychics shop. Moe from the simpsons was there. i walked past a phone-box and there was a weird little anime girl with a white light coming from her head. When i went down the road and closer to my house the scenery changed, the road at the end of the street was going straight up. There was two buildings besides the road with a white light spectre of sorts floating about. i walked between some of the buildings where it turned to daytime and i emerged in an overgrown scruffy garden near a pleasantly ugly looking house. There was russian music playing loudly from within and Joe Tazuna was there but much crueler. The people living in the house were abusive and i remember them calling Joe back into the house.

2020:

[7/5/2020] i was the main character of a series of somekind. it started off in a forest with two anime boys running away from something. there was a timeskip and i wound up on a tiny boat and was an evil villain character. The anime boys from the beginning were layed off in a small room looking morbidly depressed and tired. i made two other people get on my boat - a blonde girl and a purplehaired boy. the blonde lady was really defeated and told the purple boy to give up and just get on the boat. he was really pissed off at me because i killed his friends. i then went to my grandmas ex husbands house and saw a cat called mrdaddy.

[9/8/2020] i was sat in my nanas front garden and i started to feel something moving inside my body. i saw a strange hentai vision x-ray shot of inside my womb and there was a handful of maggots wriggling around.

2021:

[11/2/21] i was in a big sports hall for some kind of school assembly sat on the floor with someone i knew. some other people came over and told me to go sit with somebody else across the hall i knew. when i sat with them they seemned to not want me there so they moved away from me a little T~T. The assembly began and i started getting irritated by someone i knew from irlschool. I tried my best to ignore him but i ended up reacting and catching the headmasters attention. He yelled at him and gave him detention. I felt a little scared though and thought that because i somewhat got him landed in attention that he'd try to kill me and so i told the teacher to let him off. The headmaster sat next to me for a while to try make me feel better. i was really attracted to him.

[1/10/21] i was at a stranger version of my grandmas exhusbands house and there was a staircase on the second floor leading to the basement. it was nighttime and there was a bunch of girls i didnt know occupying the rooms. There was possessed lady moving up and down the staircase. i tried to coax her up the staircase but she didnt like me doing that. everyone in the house was scared of her but she never left the basement. the least she'd go was the the top of the stairs so the girls were kind of ok with her being there. i tried to get her out again-----she was crawling up screaming&making strange noises. she went back to the bottom of the stairs but kept peeping through the banisters. she said that she wanted to make it with my father but i was in love with her bad and felt hurt she didnt want to make it with me instead. i went down into the basement to see what was going on in there. it was dark and dirty down there. she did have the tv on though. she was layed underneath a sofa grabbing and hitting my ankles. she attacked me alot but after some time she started being good to moi.

[2/10/21] i was back in highschool. when i entered my class room the tables were divided by otherworldly powers people had. there was one chair and table at the back reserved for someone with the powers of Christ , which was me. cool power scaling academy. Later on there was a disease/infection going around. dark green slime was coming out of peoples mouths and it got so bad you couldnt touch the ground anymore. like floor is lava.

[3/10/21] me and my mommy found a dog in the hills so we took it home with us and called it alcoholic. it didnt register that i could keep a dog in my house so i started clearing space out in the shed for it. yuck

[7/10/21] in the beginning i seemed to be in an attic. It was huge there was two living area and a somewhat empty side. they were seperated all by brick walls and tiny short hallway spaces. Lucas from resident evil 7 was on the other side of one area talking really loudly. I tried to sneak out but wound up circling into the other side of the attic. I was caught by lucas who seemed rather smug that he caught me but i managed to run away. On the lower level there was a lady and her boyfriend who had alot of pets wandering around. exotic ones! it was harder to traverse the house like this. I ran into their pet bull and ran away once more. I appeared in a whole new house. It was a fancy wood panelled mansion. There was a girl there who had seemingly cheated on her boyfriend. she said soemthing like its just how i am. your probably better off without me#. a little bit interesting i suppose. Again, i appeared to be in a stranger version of the abandoned mill by my house. I was with a guy i used to be around and he was asking why i didnt want him or love him but i seemed to be thinking of a long dead other man. all of a sudden, a man with a chainsaw began running in our direction. The man i was with turned into a cute girl. we jumped down a hole in the ground and tried to hide. there was a ladder leading somewhere that i needed to go to but my muscles were too stressed and i couldnt do it i guess. The area within the hole turned into a big sandy pitch and the mill had completely disapeared. the sky was purple and there was a castle in the background. There was a lot of people around now but i still got knocked down by man with the chainsaw. The cute girl and all of the other people around gathered around me and prayed for me. it worked....!! and i got back up. i spoke to one of the men nearby. he had a scary face and planned revenge on the person that attacked me.

2022:

[26/7/22] i was on a street that looked like a warped version of a street leading to my old highschool. me and a blonde man in a suit were playing detective to save a girl from a potential murderer. we walked into an alleyway and go through a door on the side of a building into a workshop with tools hanging from dark wood. there was a cage divider and one of those purple fluorecent lights that buzz loudly and kill bugs. we walk down a steep staircase from a trap door in the ground. the stairs and the walls were smoke stained yellow. there were no rails and you could see straight down the the floor from the middle. there was someone layed on the floor in a black trash bag already dead it looked like and another guy sat covered in tape and trash bags. he looked up at us and said something but we both ran away like pussies and stood around on the side of the road again.

[27/7/22] me and 2 other people were out and about looking for a hotel room. there was a hamtaro themed house hotel place ran by a short angry bald man in a suit. i was given a room - it had orange painted walls with white circles and had fake trees that reached the ceiling. there was also synthetic grass, toy hampsters and fun apparetus's that looked like they were made for animals to play on. there was a big fake pet cave big enough for a human to lay under by the front window of the room [the window reached the ceiling too] i was naked and started to feel shame from my nudity and decided to hide from the owner of the room so i layed under the animal cave by the window. under the bridge there was some bowls of cat food water and milk for my pleasure. the man comes in and seems overjoyed that im doing this and keeps me in captivity for a while. i have no qualms with this either. the guy did get arrested and i post humously heard i died somehow through an article read by a bunch of colourful anime characters in a limosine.

2023:

Me and my friend are trapped in the back of a lorry[lol] the door gets opened and it seems like im in the market, modified with circus looking lights and decorations. As it turns out we were being trafficked by pedophile anime ikemen vampires. I get taken by a black haired guy and a blonde one. The blonde one holds my hand and walks me around the market like hes shopping. Him and the dark haired one talk about business and a brunette one joins their talk. They stop by a place selling books and whilst they speak i have a look through the books. They were all yaoi so i assume they were making the boys they trafficked pose and perform for their pornographic magazines. I entered one od their flash backs and saw some anime boys in a fancy looking room. From what i figured there was a community of anime vamoires trafficking more anime boys and bringing them to a fancy church house facility to live whilst making them do porn for them and whatever else.

I was in a reoccuring location [non descript] at the top of a molded dingy dark staircase. A few moment before, i had been trapped on the floor below because if you went down to the bottom floor you would be trapped in a parallel world within there. Like its hopeless and theres no way back. but i did hah. I saw a girl who i guess was my friend go down there so i was contemplating going back. so i do........! its really dark so i hang around the bottom of the stairs where the light still shines down. For some reason i never went deeper in [assuming i was frightened] despite knowing there was a sprawling kind of secret world in there. instead i sit by the stairs and reread a small story book over and over to keep myself occupied for all eternity.

2024:

[8/1/24] i had a dream i was walking around the streets alot at night. i drank water dripping off a street lamp pole and saw a strange red star in the sky. i wandered onto a street i encountered in another dream but opted to walk down a darker pathway but started to feel like something bad would happen so i started to run around all panicked. on the staircase near my house i stood around for a bit and noticed an angel or devil maybe on somebodies roof. it looked like a shadowed man wearing a big coat. his facial features were highlighted by the red star. i felt like i shouldnt be seen by the angel but for some reason in situations like this [in dreams at least] i give up immediatly and let myself get spotted. he looked at me for a while then put his finger to his lip and disapeared behind a chimney.

[9/1/24] i was in close almost stalkerish proximity with a couple from my favourite bl. i was extremely jealous and infuriated. i stood behind them in some kind of winter market. they were talking about something mundane and kind of boring but they seemed isolated and only involved with each other. boring but i woke up angry about it.

[13/1/24] there was a groupd of people stood around a construction site. the floor was very muddy and had dangerous holes around. there was a orange haired teacher [???? i think] stood by a vending machine chatting with students. one of them was off on his own, standing in the mud. he had short teal hair and seemed withdrawn and disinterested. all i saw of him beyond this initial scene was him with longer hair and a crazed expression fucking and getting fucked by anime boys that i thought looked like argonavis characters. he was insane now i guess and sex crazed. it seemed he was from an anime or vn or something, i saw a fanart of him on twitter and was jealous that i hadnt thought of drawing it. i can only vaguely remember what it looked like too T~T; his body was contorted in a strange angle, he was grinning and was maybe having sex with someone. i think he had a crush on the orange haired teacher.

[14/1/24] there was a big snow storm coming so everyone would have to stay inside for a while and so my boyfriend[of a past life] went out to buy supplies including marital aids. for a while the dream just followed him walking a vaguely familiar forested path until i decided to go outside and wander around myself. i happened to walk into a religious building of sorts, there i met a pair of journalists. they were arguing between each other over opposing racist views they had. i decided to mess with them a little but they ignored me for the most part. i asked one of them why they thought these things and they got mad at me and just walked away. i walked down a slope and saw a huge tear in the road. there was a kid stuck on a fragmented piece of road but he was nasty and pushed another child into the crack and got a car to crash into the crack by running out into the road. i was a bit scared since we were the only ones left in the area together and so i ran away like a pussy. i saw a school nearby and went in to escape but put myself in harms way once more. it was clearly abandoned and the whole area was made from concrete. i went inside into a big empty room with dirty windows and trashed floors with one door at the other end of the room. a woman came out of the door and began attacking me. she was biting me and stuff. a bunch of other women came out to attack me but all at the same time, they stopped and walked away. the courtyard was littered with shadow people just kind of shambling around or standing in place wobbling from side to side. i tried to escape the school premise but the staircase out was too big and i could barely get my leg over a step. on my way back in i picked up a jack in the box that had already been popped. it would play music everytime danger was nearby. there was a hospital or somekind of ward at the side of the school i was decided i must need to go in. inside was trashed but there was a group of people sat around in chairs and a room underneath a staircase that had its light on and people talking loudly inside. i asked one of the people sat around if the people under the staircase were dangerous or scary and they went to check for me. they came back looking rather scared and told me they were fucked up. i looked around for somewhere to hide but then i just decided i could just wake up and so i did.

[23/1/24] i was in a town that appears often in my dreams. its dark and foggy and theres always monsters walking around. i met a skinny naked man with a big gash cut from between his breasts til above his penis. he was wearing a huge silver helmet that had holes in the front. he had long grey hair with two long tendrils that looked like floppy dog ears just short of his nipples. he was walking around on top of a spiked fence doing nothing inparticular.

[1/2/24] i was in a dilapitated building that was being stormed by a bunch of firemen due to the building being full of evil. it collapsed with the firemen in and out of the goodness of my heard i went in to try save them but the ceiling caved through again. i escaped into another room where i happened unto a cuck situation. there was a regally dressed couple having sex and a third party somewhat involved in the action. i got naked for the watching man who seemed to want to ignore his homosexual desires but eventually gave in to my nudeness. after that i kept seeing pretty boys getting cucked and cheating on each other for a while before i ended up in a dark forest. i decided to see how fast i could get out the other side. in the forest i found a huge hole in the ground which i decided must have been a government project. it began speaking to me but i dont remember what it said. it had a deep and old sounding voice.

[3/2/24] i was at my old house with a lover. there was a voice outside trying to lure us out/get inside the house. we boarded up the windows but i realised the voice could speak in the lovers voice and convince me to let the voice in or betray him etc. we handcuffed ourselves to each other so we'd never have the chance to leave each others sights and so that there would be no reason to suspect we'd been corrupted by the voice. even then i had considered it would find a way to turn us against one another. eventually even though the house was all boared up the voice had managed to find its way in. we locked ourselves in the bedroom and layed down in bed together but the voice started coming out from underneath the bed down the side and also the back of the bed. i stuffed some sheets down the side and behind the headboard and just layed back down.

[21/2/24] i had a tarantula attatched to my ass for medical reasons. when i got better the spider would detatch itself from my tushie and scrurry off somewhere.

[23/2/24] i was sharing a body and mind with mika in this dream. was living in a world where men were able to get pregnant too. there was a meek small guy mika had become aware of but was irrelevant to him at that moment. mika was having sex with 3 guys and they were talking about how one of the 3 had gotten the meek guy pregnant and mentioned how strange he looked having a small bump whilst being such a short guy. it enraged mika so bad. he imagined the meek guy and the impregnator having sex and got even angrier. they all finished off and mika went off, talking to himself about some books he'd been reading. at another point [me and mika had become seperate entities here] i was in a facility. im not sure what it was for but it seemed like a bad place to be in. i was along with a small group other people including mika who was acting arrogant and knowing. at some point he disapears into another room and makes it with a lady staff member. i stood outside the room and had the intense urge to masturbate to the goings on. the door was open ajar and i could see him clearly enjoying himself and hear him moaning obnoxiously loud. i heard other people from the group getting it on with each other too. i was completely cucked here. in this part i was just mika on his own this time. i was in a group of adventurers or just a group of fantasy specied people trying to get somewhere. i was much younger here too maybe 12 or so. me and a girl my age were being looked after and protected by the older ones. we arrived at a cat temple alter place. it was really dark inside and there were holes in the ground leading to a watery pit. it wasnt that deep but the water levels were rising and it was too dark to find the way out. the girl fell in and it was horrible. everyone was frantically trying to find her and get her out. i gave someone the flash light on my phone even. in the dark behind me i saw the face of the diety living in the temple watching me. i told it i knew it was watching me but it disapeared back into the wall. i heard the girl calling from one of the holes and i stood just above the water and moved my arm about randomly in the darkness to no avail. i suppose she must have died in the end. everyone was sitting around all depressed but the temple had light in now. the girls mom had latched onto me because we both had blonde hair.

[24/2/24] i was trapped in a haunted apartment with3 other girls. the water kept turning itself on and off which isnt horribly scary but in dreamland it was. there was four gay looking boys there too. we were drugged and forced to have sex with them. i must have passed out after that and when i woke up i was the only one left in the appartment. i went crazy and started running up and down the hallway screaming and crying. there was a tv on in the living room with a news report playing. there i learned i was infected with something spread by frogs but originally came from a devil. the devil appeared before me with a bunch of frogs by its side. it was a huge sewer monster covered in shit and slime. i was out of my mind and subservient to it. i was stood around naked and screaming things like 'will you treat me nicely because i do everything you say?' and begged it to fuck me. it agreed to have sex with me but it made fun of my penis size. i was embarassed.

[27/2/24] i did heroin with my friend in the black butler universe

[3/3/24] i was buttfingered by an insane man at a railway station in front of a crowd of people

[4/3/24] my dad was coming to murder me

[31/3/24] i was mika again for this dream. he was in a mountainy area with hills and benches. he was staying in a little house alone but for some reason most of his resources were cut off so he had to call his father and ask if he was allowed to come over for a glass of water. he went out wearing a night gown and fluffy jacket--- the type old starlets wore in the movies when they had to step out wearing their fancy pajamas for whatever reason-- whilst holding an empty glass. he seemed to have secondary motives for going to his fathers place, he was out to have sex with him. it was dark out and a little scary. there was alot of snow too! he gets to his dads house; its red and in a strange blocky pattern. he thought it suited his dads weird snooty tastes. mika gets his water and thinks it tastes weird like he'd get sick from drinking it. back to me however i was back in my bedroom. i had brought an ugly man back to my place and was really distressed about something. i debated whether or not i should have sex with the ugly man. i look over at the yaoi manga on my bed [for motivation?] all the covers had a blonde boy on it looking distraught, crazy or just kind of normal. after looking i decided to have intercourse with the man in my bed. i stared at him for a while to try make him prettier with my brain and he morphed into a long haired man. i assumed i was stressed out because i was a side character in some story and being jealous of the main characters. the main character was a girl who was about to lose her virginity to a fat ugly guy who was only doing it to make his obese girlfriend mad. she saw and they started having sex and squished the main character girl between them.

[1/4/24] i was wandering around watching people kidnap and traffick others. it bothered me because they looked like regular joes but you can never really tell can you. i was stood on the upper level of someones garage watching a group of men plot loudly about their trafficking. the police came and shut down whatever was going on down. one of the men called me a rat for snitching on them but that just made me snitch harder. i went back home with one of the police officers. im not exactly sure why i think it might have been a weird adoption situation. i did something that pissed everyone in the house off and they all hated me for it but one of the dads [gay] stuck up for me and even insulted his husband after i started yelling at him too. alot of arguments started so i decided to fuck off with someone that was living there and his friend. we all get drunk in the dark but in my mind it just looked like we were running around and hiding behind cars. we all needed to pee but despite being boys who could just go into a dark corner and pee discreetly we decided to go into someones garden and to take our pants off to pee like girls. the homeowner came out and my friends ran off but i got stuck T~T i had to make a big dramatic break or else id get caught.i made it back to my ikemen friend group and they were both zapping each other with a vibrator in the grass. sometime later i was taken on a drive around town for some mysterious reason with an unknown man. out of the window everywhere all i saw were emotional malexmale situations playing out on the street. i thought it was beautiful. anyways i was taken to a dreamland ficticious cafe behind a row of buildings i like. there was 2 strange guys waiting for the man i was with. he spoke with them but i was still confused. i think i was a human pet coz i was being treated like a little animal feeling stupid and sat on the floor. the man i was with went quiet and started staring into space and it felt awkward. the 2 strangers had given him a weird pink candy goop. they let me try it and it tasted very good. they were shocked that it didnt knock me out. i jumped up besides them and made them feed me more.

[14/4/24] i dreamt about two brothers. they lived in a house on top of a hill in front of a small forest. the younger brother was outcasted and isolated by his family and generally disliked. i think he had some kind of mental disability. the older brother was the only one that cared about him but only because he wanted to fuck him. they were out in the garden turning a water wheel because if the wheel wasnt constantly turning something bad would happen. they only had to do it a few hundred times before it began to spin on its own though. the younger brother turns the wheel before the older says hes done enough and it would be fine. they stand together looking at the trees. the older brother stands behind his brother kind of pressed up against him and thinks about wanting to see him in lingerie [like marge simpson - whatever he meant by this] the other brother just enjoys the peaceful atmosphere though. big brother went inside for something and while the little brothers back is turned the wheel stops turning. the family inside instantly know its stopped and due to this their grandpa dies. despite being down the path he hears his family going crazy from within the house; cursing and blaming him. he doesnt know what to do and it stood around stupidly until he spots his sister calling to him. she says she'll hide him but ended up bringing him to the rest of the family. he gets banished out to the woods behind the house. his older brother is the only one that comes to visit him. at this point the older brother convinced him to have sex and go out with him until he ditches him for another person and stops coming up to visit. unlucky life!

[28/4/24] i stabbed my dad but he wouldnt die no matter how much i stabbed him so i ran away. he only seemed to get injured when i stabbed him in the butt

[30/4/24] everyone was being turned into super aggressive animals or spontaneously dying or going crazy. they seemed to turn into animals by thinking about animals or just at all. most of everyone was dying because its rather hard not to think. i was in a supermarket when it happened. everyone was running around and going nuts. there was a pig with a human face that wanted me to pick him up. i did as i was asked to be spared his hog wrath. i guess i musthave been a student since i was in uniform and with a teacher &other uniformed boy. we went outside where it was dark and everywhere was empty. we were trying to get to the top of a radio tower building it looked like but from the darkness there was a fish man hunting us with a harpoon. when we reached the top, the teacher had turned into a big meaty animal. she had a moles face and a cut open type of bears body.

[2/5/24] i was on a vacation with my grandma. it was at a small caravan with some other mostly faceless people who later found out were staff made to watch over nympho anime boys which i guess i was one of. the staff were there to stop them from rubbing against things and humping each other. one was scolded for masturbating but kept going after getting yelled at alot for it. i made out and had slight under the shirt action with one of them. while the staff was distracted we were gonna sneak away to have sex in the back bedroom but i was distracted by the guy that was scolded for playing with himself since he was naked now. i was scolded for looking at his penis.

[16/5/24] they [whoever they are] discovered 300 new colours under the sea. they put out footage of them going to deeper levels of the ocean than they ever had before. there was a giant hole surrounded by tiny houses and some destroyed airplanes around too. i closed my eyes though since im so very scared of the water but it just kept being projected into my mind. later on i won a competition to go on a boat vacation. i went on to face my fear of water but once i was on i decided it was too scary after all and hid in the bathroom. i hid in the bath and some ladies came in and got really close to me. for some reason or another they watched me pee.

[26/5/24] i came across a courage the cowardly dog type lunatic in the park and decided to start dating him despite knowing how crazy and unpredictable he was. my dream kindly cliff noted the happenings of this relationship for me. it started off normal before it started getting weird and scary. i saw the lobby of a small apartment block covered in blood. i had a knife too. i wish i could have seen what happened.

[28/5/24] i was at an office job and about to put something in the paper waste bin but got distracted by a black and white striped caterpillar thing. it was giving birth everywhere. when i stopped watching the bug in labour i noticed a creepy lady staring at me and smiling. she was getting way too close so i had to push her away a little. i looked back at the caterpillar, it was giving birth like crazy and its babies were growing bigger than her. as it happened the caterpillar was some kind of parasite everyone around me was getting infected with. it looked very painful, their gums were swelling out of their mouths and their teeth were huge and crooked. drooling everywhere. an infected lady came and sat me down. she seemed very knowing and a little sinister. she told me the new world im living in will be painful. she pulled out a little pill and told me taking it was the only way to not get infected.

[31/5/24] there was an undergound mine or something that had caved in. it trapped and injured a man and his lady coworker. she tried to nurse him back to health but over time as they had been trapped down there, they had become a warped version of mother and son. the man became an adult baby and the lady was deranged and smelled of milk. i had to kill him when i found him to overcome a sperate problem regarding myself. i put my hand through his chest or his belly button to squeeze his heart but he was smiling and giggling like it was the funniest thing in the world. he told me that it hurt but was a happy pain. the lady was laughing like mad too. after that i went into the room they had been trapped in and layed down. i was watching myself through a cctv footage. i saw a short shadow figure besides me and i spoke to him. i didnt hear a thing he was saying. i must have had a revelation of somekind because my vision was obscured with bright white. i woke up in my highschool and decided to wake up for real after that

[10/6/24] my cats corpse was being sold at the shop and they wouldnt let me have her back. the man at the counter told me i could have her if i licked his dick. he made me do it in front of everyone. a strange old man stood beside me and petted my hair as i did it and said strange erotic things to me. i went home and cried so hard it hurt. at least i got her back

[4/7/24] i was a prostitute and the best under the man i was working for. i was stood on a balcony with some girls and one broke the railing and just killed herself. nobody seemed to care. i told my boss a lady commit suicide and he got mad at me.

[9/7/2024] i survived a nuclear explosion in a parking lot. i went into a supermarket for refuge and to rest. there were others hiding out there like families and clueless employees milling around. i went to a back area surrounded by computers. there was rugged type mysterious man there and behind him a humanoid devil thing. it was bald with black eyes and pinkish eye bags. certain bodyparts were accentuated with red stuff. the rugged man told me 'this is the devil. it has the face of a prostitute' he also explained that it would ask you strange things and relay it back to you to try catch you out if what you said was incorrect to how you said it earlier. it would also hurt you if at any point you got too prideful and declared yourself the leader of your group of survivors. im sure it could read minds too. after a while though it fell down and turned red. the rugged guy saod its done this before and that its brain activity shows its died 7 times before. when it got back up it had the appearance of a woman with black hair and a fake plastic surgery face. she called herself jameska. we spoke with her, she was nice but was noticably trying to goad us into saying stuff. her phone rang and she tried to get one of us to answer it. we didnt know who should answer since if we got it wrong she might kill us. after that she turned into a small little furry chibi thing. it seemed confused with itself. i picked it up and took it somewhere as it wanted to speak to me in private. we stood in the corner of what looked tp be some run down appartments. it said to me 'i hate to see you do this to yourself mika. i love you. ill look after you' or something of that nature. not a message for me per se but for mika.

[16/7/24] i had gotten pregnant and tried to induce miscarriage by alcohol coz i was scared of giving birth

[27/7/24] i was pregnant [implied i got pregnant alot in this world] and my waters broke. i felt shy about telling my mother that i was about to give birth. i peeked around the door and was like anno....im going to have a baby again.. ehhttooo..it didnt hurt though. i kept poking my belly and water would come out.

[5/8/24] i was living in a horribly glum and murky world. my house crooked and on top of the slanted forward moors. i walked down to the beach besides my home but on top of the hill befores a slope youd have to travel to get to the beach, there were two men laying down on theb black coloured grass, complaining about how badly it smelled of fish. i noticed the ground besides him looked fake amd when i pulled it up there was a pile of dead fish and rotten sausages beneath. they were covered in flies. the guy didnt really seem to care about what i found instead he appeared more irritated with me. at another point i had accidentally entered a fued with rich people who had magic powers. i forget the most part but by the end i was being protected by a man in a suit with a lions head

[7/8/24] my cat was choking to death on a piece of plastic wrapped around his neck. i pulled it off but his eyes were swollen buldging out and his tongue fell out his mouth. some time later i was a criminal boy that was considered a freak living in a nasty trashed up decrepit building. i was palling about with a fat boy and a cool boy. the fat one got us into trouble so i hid them in my fucked up home. i was deeply in love with the cool one so i tried to impress him with garbage id scavenged from the lower levels of my house.

[9/8/24] i was in a game that was mystery horror type. i was the main character here, was a skinny with brown hair and wearing a brown school uniform. i was an amnesiac and came back to my home to figure out what happened. most of what i found were german poems and diaries i assume. at some point i found out that the character i was had been sexually abused by her family. i stood over a mirror and looked at my underwear which triggered a montage styled flashback of her and her sisters sat nude in bed with her older brother. went back in time to her life before the amnesia. her sisters and brothers were trying to coax her into spending time with them, being predatory and irritating. she stays in her room and he siblings begin having sex with one and other. later on im back to my life, im in school trying to skip class but a teacher notices me being tardy and starts chasing me. i went through a network of doors into a bathroom but no matter how well it seemed i was evading him, he was always just right behind me. every bathroom stall i ran into led to other bathrooms of differing qualities. i bust into one of them and there was an fbi spy type agent guy working there. he was sat around various monitors and had a headset on. he let me past and pointed me in the direction of a crack in the wall. on the other side of the crack it there was a loading area dock thing surrounded by pitch black scary water. by looking at the water i somehow ended up in it which caused my brain to get stressed and change the direction of the dream or wake up. i didnt wake up but i made it back to land and into my friends backyard. i sit with him on some rocks, drinking and looking at the sky. there was a jet flying around recklessly and getting super low to the ground which i freaked out about. turns out it was a hologram[boring story] his dad came out and sat beside me and i felt shy near him because i wanted to sleep with him the end. bye

[10/8/24] i was blonde again and in some kind of trouble. i was wandering a familiar dream world exclusive street naked. i seemed to be a few weeks pregnant. i was maybe being chased or something. i was being crazy and out of it and decided to go live on instagram. i was mostly talking to myself about something strange and people started to join. my friends joiined and i felt a little silly about letting them see my nipples but i stopped caring quickly enough

[16/8/24] i was a horrible homewrecking bitch. a mystery neighbour had an obsession with me despite being married with kids. i was using him for pointless things like rides places in exchange for sex. my mother didnt know i was engaging with me and told me to be wary of him. his family also seemed to be getting cross about it. sorry. some time later i was on the science corridor at my old highschool, being followed by a strange man in really wrinkly suit. i tried to run away from him but i was going so very slow. i escaped outside down a forest path and into a football pitch full of people id known at some point in my life. they were all friendly with me too. the stalking man followed me out but decided to stand and watch me from afar. he started moving around and i got worried he was coming to hurt me so we decide to leave and meet with a teacher. on the way i encountered a woman having a meltdown in beliefs that she had the devil in her eye. that scared me thourougly so i decided to run away on my own. found my way to the exit and it was dark outside at this point. a really big vehicle drove over to the gates;; it was a triple decker bus lol..it frightened me so i hid in the shrubs. there was search lights coming off of it and moving around in a disturbing manner which made me register the bus as an enemy.

[19/8/24] i was in an attic full of scary murderous students. they were killing each other already. i though something like 'the youth of today are so evil..' but as it turned out, they were just being forced to do this by their leader. their leader was a girl version of maria. she had a meeker side kick who appeared to be mukuro..what a switch up. she made us play a stupid game where we stood on the edge of a plank and had to defend ourselves from the other students trying to push us off. some girl got put on the plank with me because she was ugly. she pleaded with me to let her win even though it was a game where both of us could have won

[22/8/24] was at my grandmas old house, trying to sneak by a lady. i caught her having lesbian sex with someone im related to, cant remember who. i was shocked and ran away. though i wasnt really that shocked in actuality i just wanted to run away. the lady chased me and demanded i come back. i hopped a fence and ended up in an area i know except it featured a railway track. there was a car parked on the track with someone inside. there was also a group of people nearby with a little monkey on a leash. i wanted to keep running but i was taken by the goingson around me and curious about the whole palava. few police men came by and started probing the car on the traintracks. i also seemed to have a little brother now too. the group on the other side were abusing and being cruel to the monkey causing it to fall into a body of water. i didnt know how deep the water went so i forced my brother to go in and fish it out. we left [no more lady chasing me either] and saw a pair of brothers messing around with each other. they vaguely acknowleged us as they went by so i decided to follow them in hopes of making friends. crucial detail here; i was a gyaru and it seemed like i was new to this town. we walked up a slight path and came across some others. one guy said something stupid like woaaah whos that hottie in referance to my brother because they thought he looked girly. i said ;' hes a boy you faggot' and he replied by saying 'i thought you were too, with those things' so i was like oh yeahhhh wanna see? and unbuttoned my shirt a little. i befriended a group of gyaru girls up ahead. one groped me and it felt so nice i woke up. popular

[10/9/24] i had given birth to 2 babies. the father was a video game character im too embarassed to name. i hated my children but he seemed to love them.

[14/9/24] i found some kind of true crime type channel but the thumbnails were insanely disfigured tortured graphic images. it upset me but they just kept getting projected into my brain. i looked up and saw my mother and aunt at my bedroom door. there was a shadow figure peeking around the corner at the top of the stairs behind them. i screamed at them to turn around and look but they were drunk and kept laughing. i kept screaming for them to just look but they just laughed even louder. i must have got so upset i passed out. it was very early morning and slightly dark outside anyways. mother and my aunt werent home but hajime shino was. i went into my kitchen and found him cooking fairy cakes. i was upset and scared still--it felt like it wasnt completly safe to be at home either, like there was something evil here still. i told hajime about the horrible videos and demon encounter, seeking comfort from him but he was being dismissive and more interested in icing the cakes. i went back to looking at the strange videos and saw one that was titled 'most horrific prison punishments....!!!!!!!!!!!!' and the thumbnail was a scary dark green pool with walruses in with a big red circle around it captioned;'he was gangbanged to death by walruses ?!?!' with a ton of emojis

[16/9/24] i was heavily pregnant in the doctors office being acompanied by just about everyone id ever known. it was horrible so i forced them to leave in a public freakout. even when everybody left i kept crying and screaming. i threw myself on the floor to writhe around and cry some more. the doctor didnt want to come in

[25/9/24] i was pregnant without knowing to twins no less! the way i gave birth was that they came inside a mcdonalds dinner and id have to dig them out. everyone was fussing over my babies which looked like wormy parasites. i called them maxim and mehitabel. my estranged father even came to see them. i went to buy some booze after wards but was turned away because i was a mother now. i tried to figure out who the father might have been for a while before i figured it was time i pulled my babies out of the burgers they were inside. i was worried they might die since they were covered in ketchup and ingredients but they seemed fine enough even though one was barely moving. i looked at one but i found it so disgusting i had to look away and laugh.

[20/10/24] i was heavily pregnant again, walking around a marketplace on a school trip. i tried making friends but failed miserably. they only seemed keen on talking to my friend which upset me. i bought a worn out old dress and was sent back on my way to school. the world was in disarray so i think all students had to just live at school for a while. i went back to school alone, feeling sorry for myself disapeared to a fair ground to look for a gentleman suitor. kind of boring

[21/10/25] me and my friend were competing for slendermans love. my friend was like please bro let me just have this even though slenderman was sweeter on me. but alas i was like sigh fine, im such a good guy really i am. but then i remembered he had a girlfriend and i got mad with him. no YOU let me have him.

[24/10/25] i was back in science class just about to stand up and leave but a teacher from another class came behind me and began molesting me. i looked around like is anyone else seeing this ? but there was nobody around anymore. i was outside all of a sudden when i looked back at him. he was playing with some flowers before taking me to a hell world. i got put in a red rock brick room with red water and pink gammy stuff on the floor and walls. there were things dangling from hooks as well as a machine made from the rocks on the ground in the corner. the machine could turn people into boneless sad creatures, like mitty from mia. one of them crawled up to the teacher. he picked it up and pet it all happy like. i was smiling too for some reason. i tried to escape still though and hid under a small ledge he could clearly see me from. he ignored me though and didnt care at all about what i was doing. when i got out of red devil hell world i was put into another situation. i was due to sing a song in front of the whole town. i was so stressed about it i went back to hell world. my teacher was there but this time he had 4 children and a wife. i congratulated him on his family. his children were big purple spiders.

[2/11/24] i was running around with my friend. not sure where we were trying to go but we had to climb through a horribly steep path by a reservoir down below. i bravely made it through and was under a tunnel. i saw bondrewd down on a rock in the reservoir and went back down. i asked if he remembered me [i think i was part of his experiments at some point in my dreamworld life] he told me of course i remembered. i told him i wanted to help him with his studies and do stuff for him. it seemed to make him happy. i let him know that i wanted him too. we spoke about what id want to do with him. he spoke to me like a teacher adressing a student though. my two friends stood around awkwardly during this point. he was asking me if i had been treat sexually in the past by family members and goading me into telling him if i was abused. i said yeaaasss in a weird tone of voice id never used before, trying to sound seductive. he kissed me and jammed his tongue into my mouth to pacify me. he told me hed see me soon and disapeared off somewhere. i went on palling around with a colourful cast of anime character friends, laying lethargically in the sand with some guy. we went about into a really run down town where the was dirty looking green moss growing on everything. i was acting provocatively and got a perverted old mans attention. my friend scolded me for it. later on i was a cute happy tree friend. we got trapped in a pool over night, the tree friends started to freak out and get injured. i had to yell at them|!STOPPPP PANICKING YOUR MAKING IT WORSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' i had to untangle their legs to keep them from ripping each other apart.

[6/11/24] was at my dead nanas house where evil things were taking place. there was a guy being kept in the basement getting tortured and experimented on. i was a gormless onlooker in this situation. they removed his penis and hammered a new one onto his crotch. it was huge and had tiny arms and legs that would move when he crawled around. his penis would walk crawl behind him most times since it was so gigantic. it was being held on by a small strange of flesh though. was all just breaking off from itself. whatever they were trying to do to him had succeeded and he turned into a big smiling red meaty horse. i decided this was my last moment of freedom and killed myself by jumping from the window.

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[10/1/25] i had a dream i was in my primary school dinner hall but i was converted into a library. i was looking at the yaoi section and decided to buy a room 9 doujinshi. i was with someone who was really judgemental of my purchase choice and kept trying to snatch it from me. I also seemed to be in a perverted world. i was wearing a white one peice swimming uniform and had the mannerisms of a patheic uke. i watched myself like i was looking in a mirror and i looked like mika. The cashier started getting hot and heavy with me and made me drink his cum filled condom. i was making kyaaa ughyuuuu nghyyaaaaaa noises and seemed to get into it alot before realising i was being watched by everyone in the library. i ran away screaming kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa too. at this point i had a taste for cum and asked the man i was with {later revealed to be seiji azumi} to ejaculate on the chicken wings i had to i could eat them. Cum eater

[14/1/25] i had a dream i died of cancer. Everyone was really sad {even though i never see these people in real life anymore} my mother was sad but she sent me off to the doctors to die alone. i woke up for a while after this to answer the phone and when i went back to sleep i had another dream i was dying of cancer. Everybody was being nice to me because you cant be mean to a dying person lol. i was at my old very 1st house. ok

[17/1/25] i had a dream that i was taken to a square enclosed area. It started off inside but by the end it had turned into outside. i was with maybe 2 other people i now recognise as some of those league of legends arcane characters i see everywhere- but the people in this area took interest in me only. There were vageuly familiar handsome men in suits {most of them were anyways} one of them injected a syringe with pink liquid into my arm and it felt good. I remember having sex with one of the men while the other ones watched in weird amusment +== like chuckling and smiling not because its funny and not so interested that they coulldnt take their eyes off me. Another suited man injected more drugs into my arm and i was feeling great. After the affair was done i wandered around the little area i was feeling really cocky and important. I had a shorter dream where i woke up falling and came to realise that this was the future where everyone is falling constanly and just lived life like this and getting born while falling.

[18/1/25] i had a dream i was raped by a teacher or manager figure of some kind. I was in a hall {my primary school year 1~2 assembly hall} and there was a man going through a list and telling us what he thought we'd be when we were older. I was very last and he told me id be a lesbian and kept asking if i was a lesbian being pushy and whatnot. i told him to stop being weird and went somewhere else. later on i was being punished for something in my bedroom by the man. He made me get naked and started spanking me at first but my butt twitched and caught his attention as he was leaving. He raped me but it felt good so i felt ashamed afterwards.My prostate also fell out. MY thighs were all wet and i was grossed out by all the fluid stuck to me. I went to tell my friend about it on discord but to keep it a secret because i didnt want to get in trouble for telling someone about what he did. Later on i was dreaming about cutting up my stomach/belly button while laying in my moms bed. It didnt hurt but there was dark and plale red lumps coming out of me and for some reason i thought id get in trouble for bleeding so i rushed around to clean the blood bits up before my mom saw it.

[19/1/25] i had a dream i was sexually assaulted by my brother {of which i dont have irl} it was framed in an artsy manner. I was watching it happen outside my body kind of like i was watching a movie. I could see my torso and my brothers crotch{?} and hand moving to touch my privates. i think i was crying or at least whimpering. Later i dreamt of the song 'girls on film' by duran duran but i couldnt get the name right in my dream so instead it was called 1 million videos which disturbed me to think that the girl on film had had sex with 1 million men. I imagined a music video for it too but the girl was replaced by mika. Later again i had a dream about a pig cruise ship. It was huge and all of the structurs on board were shaped like vaguely humanised pig heads that were moving and singing. inluding weirdly shaped water slides. On board there was a pet shop with all sorts of animals. i wanted to buy a skunk. i also recieved electroshock therapy in a nice looking room with a crystal ball inside.